“I’ll wait for that morning when my first thoughts are no longer for him…
Then I would realized that I had already let him go…
It may not be the best sunrise but I will go through the day knowing that
My sunset will be better. For I know I am no longer hurt…”
Text Received: February 02, 2009
08: 53 PM
Sender: Christina J.
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I’m a broken heart! could you help to forget all of this. thanks
Pwede kitang tulungan pero I can’t assure you hundred percent.
Kung okay lang sayo, kwento mo kung bakit? I’m willing to listen.
Anyhoots, thanks for reading my blog:)
mahal n mahal ko kc ex bf ko. pero alm ko mali n e2 kc hndi n ako mahal nia,my gf n cia. almost 6mos n kmi wla pro hndi ko p din cia mkalimutan. npkadmi ko n motivation n ngwa pra srili ko. nhhirapan ako kc wla ako mpgsbhan ng nrramdaman ko. haay!
pti studies ko naapektuhan. gs2 ko n mg move on.
Even though hindi na kayo it is not wrong na mahal mo pa din sya. Hindi mo pwedeng sisihin sarili mo kasi nagmamahal ka lang at hindi ganun kadali na kalimutan lahat ng pinagsamahan. Hindi ganun kadali magmove-on im telling you. It is a long-time process to heal and to love again lalo na kung umabot ka sa point na akala mo sya na talaga. Lahat talaga ng bagay naapektuhan hindi lang studies kundi kung panu ka makitungo sa iba.
Anyway, I know lilipas din yan. Give your self time to heal. Sooner unti-unti ka din makakapag-move on. It’s not an easy thing but time will come.
Kung wala kang mapagsabihan hey! I’m willing to listen. Give me a shot:) Hehe. If you feel like opening up to me just feel free alright?
thank you! alam mo naiicip ko nga my personality disorder n ako e. sbra dmi ko naiicp at nggawa mali. pro ngging aware nman ako n mali,after nga lng ng nngyari. aun. hehe. dmi umaasa skin,sbra taas expectation ng papa ko skin. nttakot ako n bmgsak s subjects ko. haaiii….
buhay nga nman oh!
Welcome:]
Grabe naman. Wala ka naman sigurong personality disorder. It just happened na ganun lang talaga naging epekto sayo. Chill lang. Makakayanan mo din yan. Kaw pa. Basta aral ka lang ng maigi hindi ka niyan babagsak. Medyo ka-pressure yung situation mo ah kasi mukhang mataas talaga expectations nila sayo pero kaya yan:] Parang parehas lang din naman tayo ng situation kasi ganyan din sila sa akin hindi nga lang vineverbalized pero ramdam ko pa din yung pressure.
Meron ka bang subjects na nahihirapan?
hmm. i agree. moving on isn’t that easy and that’s based on my experience. only thing i can say is, you can’t go back to the past. love yourself more coz you know, its obvious that he’s over you. dnt waste your time on him. its not love anymore, you see. its just that you want to be loved because your yearning for it. but you don’t love him nomore. you don’t love that person itself. and what makes you think that you still love him? coz u can’t forget all the memories? my dear, past remains in the past. you can’t keep on holdin on because. because. that’s just the way it is. that’s life. just don’t rush on forgetting him however try your best stiLL to let go&&finaLLy move on. have your laugh by the end of the day. 🙂
err uhm hope that helps. juz felt like sayin what i went through last year..
(Singit ako dito)
Go Yaniiee! Galing!
Hehe. Uy! Galing experience niya. Anyhoots. Wala man akong real-experience related dito kasi bata pa ako. Haha. Pero based sa mga naging experience ng iba ang speaking-terms ko dito. Minsan its just so sudden na biglaan kaya hindi agad makapag-move on yung isang tao. Pero tulad nga ng sinabi ni Yaniiee it will eventually be left in the past. Kelangan magmove on straight forward. Memories will remain memories na lang.
Kaya mo yan girl! Meron ka naman friends that will back you up:]
what is the opposite of love?
it really isn’t hate after all.
apathy is the opposite of love.
apathy which means, you DON’T CARE at all.
none at all!
’cause when you show hate to somebody, you are also showing him/her love.
since, you’re giving her attention.
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if he’s giving you attention, he loves you.
***
I agree dun sa sinabi mo.
Geez. Ang talino naman. Di ko kineri! Haha
Thanks for sharing Jo-i
hehe. i know. lhat ng bgay ngbbago!kya ko nman e2, kelngan ko nga lng mpg ssbhan. I’m not a girl type n ng sshow ng emotions kako n s kakilala ko. I don’t want to give them another problem. you know what ngaun lng ako ng share ibang tao. I’ ve learned a lot, i appreciate people around me,like you. i really appreaciate your ideas,i badly need it. thank you!
cguro nga hndi n love e2 nrramdaman ko,minsan kc alm ko n s sarili ko I’m happy for him! nallungkot lng ako,sbi mo nga hndi mllimutan memories. aware ako s lhat, hndi ko lng m control emotion ko mnsan which is normal nman db? He is my kuya and he will always be.
Yeah lahat naman nagbabago e. Yung lang naman yung tanging constant sa mundo. Mukhang hindi ka showy type ng feelings. Peron once in awhile magaan din sa pakiramdam na alam ng mga tao kung anu talaga nararamdaman mo. Its not that bibigyan mo sila ng problema kasi panigurado maapektuhan sila in some way pero atleast you are letting them in to your world, to your emotions.
Wow. Its a big leap para sayo etong pagsshare ng feelings mo sa akin ah. Waa. Super overwhelmed talaga ako. As in. Kung alam mo lang. Kasi hindi lahat ng tao kayang ishare yung mga ganitong bagay sa iba lalo na sa mga hindi kakilala sa personal. Sana I can help you in some way.
Siguro nga hindi na love talaga yung nararamdaman mo. Sort-of used to be emotions na lang yung natitira. Kasi syempre nasanay ka na ganun yung mga bagay before. Hindi naman ganun kadali na one day biglang okay ka na at hindi mo na hahanapin yung mga nakasanayan mo na di ba. Pretty soon unti-unti din yan outburst of feelings mo. Pero wag mo pilitan kung hindi pa kaya. Time can heal anything sabi nga nila e. Good thing pa na after all he will be always a kuya for you.
Right from the start my room is my comfort zone,then he came lhat ngbago. He knows me better than I know myself. Actually he is a seminarian ng mgka killa kmi, ng apostolate cia s island nmin,youth ako nun dhil s close kmi ng parish priest pnakilala nia ako. After 5 mos lmabas cia s seminaryo pra skin,one of the reason din cguro e his heart does not belong to serve people. Nakita ko kng pano din cia nhrapan smin, ng sacrifice dn cia. Dmating time n pti parents nia ngalit s gnawa nia pg quit s seminaryo. Pnalbas pla cia! haha kc dmi nia violations ngawa. Bwal kc fone dun,sbi ko kc ayoko wla kmi communication kya ngddla cia fone evry nyt mgktxt kmi,kpg wla cia gngwa.Evry mos lmlbas cla seminaryo,pnupnthan nia ako. 1 sem n lng ggraduate cia hdi cia nkauwi s knila o khit s sem kc ako punthan nia. aun. haha. pna pili cia ng derictor nla kng llbas o stay seminaryo. Ms pinili nia lmabas. S batangas cia d2 ako manila,evry week o twice a week pnu pnthan nia ako dti. Hndi din pla mganda plgi kau mg kausap o mgksama,sbra din kc seloso kya knti bgay png aawayan nmin.Un nga lng,were not meant to each other tlga. Haba kwen2 ko. haha
Wow bigtime pala naging lovestory niyo. Mukhang one of the reasons nga na lumabas siya na totally magquit e dahil sayo. In a way ang tapang niya na gawin yun kasi kahit alam niya na magagalit yung parents niya ginawa pa din niya. Sayang nga lang kasi kahit madaming sacrifices na nangyare e hindi pa rin nagwork-out yung relationship niyong dalawa. Mahirap nga kalimutan all you and him been through. Medyo seloso pala siya. Hmm siguro kasi malayo siya kaya ganun na lang nung mga panahon na kayo pa.
Anung reason kung bakit kayo naghiwalay? Dahil sa long-distance relationship in a way kasi mahirap talaga kapag ganun o meron pang ibang reasons beside dun?
Hndi n kc kmi mg ksundo, plagi kmi ng aaway. Ng desisyon n kmi mg hwalay khit msakit. Wala nman 3rd party,lhat kc png uusapan nmin. Khit ung pnlligaw nia e s iba png usapan nmin. Open nman kmi s lhat,nkausap ko cia pti ung girl nia hndi p nman dw tlga cla. Ako lng ngpplit s srili ko n cla n,cguro kc s nkikita ko at nrrmdaman. hehe. Mbait ung girl, tingin ko ms mbait cia skin.haha. kya ok n skin. Snabi dn nla n gs2 nla ang isa’t isa, which is masakit! db? Cguro kc hndi ako hnda mrinig un,aun. Mahal ko c kua kc nging mbuti cia skin s khat ng png smhan nmin o khit hnggang ngaun e mbait cia skin. Mtagal din nmn nging kmi,mdmi kmi png daanan wla regret n nkilala ko cla preho. Alm mo nkausap ko ulit cia, pnapkirmdaman ko dn sarili ko kng mahal ko p cia hgit s pgging kua. Hndi n pla ganon,cguro kc sbra n din ako nsaktan,mdmi n ako nailuha.hehe Its time to move on hndi lng pra s sarili ko,pra s mga ngmamahal skin. Aun. Salamat ng marami s pkikinig s kwento ko.
Eto na siguro yung tamang time na makapagmove on ka na. Hindi na talaga healthy kung maghohold on ka pa. For sure meron isang tao dyan na para sayo talaga. Nakakatuwa kasi willing ka ishare yung kwento mo kahit hindi naman tayo literally magkakilala.
Tungkol nga pala sa movies:
-The Day After Tomorrow
-Perfect STorm
-Nature Unleashed: Fire
-NYC: Tornado Terror
-A.I. Artificial Intelligence
-Waterworld
-The Core
congrats! im happy for you. sumtymz we juz have to go thru failed relationships tlga for us to learn lessons and to get to know our weaknesses. he’s not just meant for you. his purpose in ur life is to let u learn sumthn. and of course there was love,but it faded coz itz not right. sum1 way better than him will come. good experience dn yn sau,ryt? so nxt tym na may friend ka who is encountering diz kind of prob,atleast u’ll be able to help him/her by giving adbayz davah? based on ur experience pa tlga. 🙂 be happy!
Yeah! Hahaha:]
Mukhang mas magaling pa talaga kayo magbigay ng advise:]
salamat ng marami. dami ko nga lng problema s skul nman. huhu. bka bmagsak n ako nito! my alm kb movie about s disaster? bgyan mo nman ako.
Oo nga e. nattawa n lng ako s mga nngyari skin,mdami nman nnliligaw ayoko p lng ulit. Sbi nga nla bkit hndi ko dw subukan. Ms mganda cguro tama n mna,my right time nman pra dun.Icipin ko mna sarili ko ngaun,nkakaawa n kc ako. hehe. Salamat s pkikinig,masaya ako nkilala kita khit s gn2. Salamat din s movie! hehe
Yeah give yourself a break muna in having a relationship. Hindi pa din naman totally nakakapagmove on ka din. It will be just sort-of unfair kung magjujump-right in after ka sa relationship ngayon. Try enjoying things with friends muna. They will help you in moving forward. Me too:] Masaya din ako kasi you’ve shared your thoughts and feelings freely. Buti nakatulong yung movies na ibinigay ko. Hehe. Anyway, para saan ba yun?
pra s disaster nursing nmin, maarte prof ko e. hehe
ggwan dw nmin summary and reaction. aun, mgddownload p ako movie. nkkainis nga e!!! hehe salamat po!
ayoko n pmasok. by the way ilan taon kn,ng aaral kp din?
Nursing ka? Ankulet naman kasi nursing din ako e. Haha. Parehas pala tayo:]
Anyway san ka nag-aaral? Hmm ako secondyear na. 19 na. Huhu. Last teen year ko na . Lols
Aah para dun pala yung disaster movie na kelangan mo.
haha. talaga! 4th year n ako,ocoberian nga lng. s fatima valenzuela! ms mtanda p pla ako sau! haha. nkakahiya nman sau p ako ng pptulong. hehe. Ok lng yan, kelan k mg 19?
Geez 4thyear ka na pala. Haha. Ankulet naman. Wow! ang layo mo pala. Actually 19 na ako nung January:]
ah! e san k ng aaral? haha kulit tlaga,sau p ako hmhngi tulong s love life ko. Anyway,i find u smart, matured kn mg icp which is good! Very rare tao gnyan! naks smile cia…hehe…totoo yan. ingat kw plagi!
Sa Concordia College dito sa Manila. Uyy natats naman ako (laki ulo) Haha. Ikaw rin ingat lagi. Update mo ko sa lovelife mo. Hehe
hehe. oo nman! huhu. my dmating p kya. hehe
Meron at meron dadarating yan:] Eto talaga. Haha:]
hey! I’m back! hehe… Anyway i just want 2 let u know…I’m on the process of moving on p rin…nkakatawa noh? hehe. I miss ur account!
Hi Kat!
Wow. You’re back finally:))
Thats one good thing. Mukhang unti-unti ka ng nakakapagmove on ah. Go! Go!
salamat!
Uy musta ka na?
Anung bago?
bago…much better kesa dati..aun…
looking forward s new relationship…
uhm..nka pasa nga pla ako 104…hehe
105 n ako! yehey! hehe
kw musta?
Nice! Uy mukhang meron bagong lovelife ah:))
Congrats! Nakapasa ka pala. Galing mo naman. Idol!
Hmm. Ako? Heto okay naman. Pasukan na namin sa Mon tapos start na din ng Capping Practice
medyo delayed nga e kasi sa A H1N1 na yan. Haha:))
ahaha… wla p namn..looking forward p lng…nyahahakami dn pasukan n ng monday!
kkgaling ko nga lng s chickenpox e.
wow,mg cacapping kn. congrats!
Ayeee! At sino naman etong nillook-forward mo? Hehe
Ooh kayo din pala nagstart na ng classes. Astig:))
Aww. Sana ok ka na from chicken-poxie. Hehe
Yeah. This coming Sat na yung event. Woooo! excited na natitimang ako.
Hay. Start na ng duty ko sa Mon tas sa Lubao, Pampanga. Tsk! Layo. Oh kamote! Hahaha:))
ahaha…secret mna. bka kc maudlot p eee.
haha…tsaka kelngan ko ata mg focus ngaun s studies ko,mhrap n kc e…mblis lng kc phase ng grduating taz octoberian p,hndi k2lad ng regular hndi msyado toxic… aun.
malayo nga un…plagi kc ako pampanga (provincial). ayyyst! mhrap tlga….
mg-aral k mbuti h. read read read…hehe
pero mg enjoy k mna, mg ccapping kn e! yuhoooo!
congrtaz!
Ay sabagay. Apir Mare! Haha. Basta balitaan mo na lang ako kung anu man mangyare sa inyo. Ayii!
Onga e. Kelangan talaga focus ka na muna kasi graduating ka na. Nakoo Octoberian ka pala. Mukhang toxic ka talaga ngayon ah.
Upu. Mag-aaral ng mabuti (Etchos!) Haha. Minsan kasi katamad talaga. Pero madalas naman kinokondisyon ko sarili ko na mag-aral.
Kakatapos lang ng Capping ko kahapon. Ayun masaya naman. Ang bilis lang pala. Hahaha. Hay bagong chapter ng buhay na
kelangan paghirapan.